#5. The thought of growing up- Some day I'll be able to do what I want. Someday I'll be able to spend my own money, make my own rules, and drive my own car. Oh, how I long to be grown up now just so people will stop treating me like a kid. I'm 5 now and everybody still treats me like I'm 4. I can't wait to grow up!
#4. the thought of being popular- There has only been a few times when I have been popular. Like the time we were cracking bullwhips in the back yard, and all the kids in the trailer court came over to watch and learn.
#3. Driving the 4 wheeler all by myself- Well it technically wasn't all by myself because Dad was on the back shifting gears, but I got to steer... All by myself... It was cool.
#2. Being able to rope the dummy- When I was 4 I couldn't catch the dummy at all. Now I can, and almost get it every time. Soon I'll be able to get it every time.
#1. Having my own full grown horse- That's right not a pony an actual horse. Now I can do he cow work and learn how to ride and train like dad does.
When I was 5 all of these things sounded pretty cool to me, but the fact of the matter is is now I am grown up, and its no big deal. In fact now that I'm 18 it's all about being 21. I'm still not popular and don't care to be because I don't like being around huge amounts of people. I drive the 4 wheeler everyday... Yes even in the winter. I rope real livestock now, and when I do rope the dummy it's all about making it look pretty. And having a full grown horse? Well, I have three, and I even catch myself missing my old pony sometimes. The point is it never stops. We always think: one day... or, when I get... or, if only... or, someday... Why can't we just be here in this point in history, living? Why musst we always wish for more? But no matter how much we wish westill can't move ahead any faster than we are now... So I say, just live.
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Monday, April 2, 2012
Mayella's Diary
Dear Diary,
Today in court I had to take the witness stand. It was hard. I tried to do what papa said, but it was so hard with that lawyer Atticus jumping on me like he did, and mocking me. That is what really sent me over the edge. I couldn't believe that the judge let him mock me like that. It really made me mad. It was hard too, ya know, having that lawyer Atticus in my face, and trying to remember the story that papa made up. I did my best to remember, but once I got flustered my mind just went blank. I know papa is gonna be mad when he gets home because of the way court went today. Humph... Papa. Ya know that lawyer Atticus was hard, but I'd rather have to dodge his questions all day then have to dodge papa's fists when he's drunk... Uh oh!!! Papa's home got to go. Hopefully he won't pound me too bad. When he hits me hard in the ribs, its hard to breathe for the next couple days... And if I have to get up in court again... Well, lets just say it won't be good.
Today in court I had to take the witness stand. It was hard. I tried to do what papa said, but it was so hard with that lawyer Atticus jumping on me like he did, and mocking me. That is what really sent me over the edge. I couldn't believe that the judge let him mock me like that. It really made me mad. It was hard too, ya know, having that lawyer Atticus in my face, and trying to remember the story that papa made up. I did my best to remember, but once I got flustered my mind just went blank. I know papa is gonna be mad when he gets home because of the way court went today. Humph... Papa. Ya know that lawyer Atticus was hard, but I'd rather have to dodge his questions all day then have to dodge papa's fists when he's drunk... Uh oh!!! Papa's home got to go. Hopefully he won't pound me too bad. When he hits me hard in the ribs, its hard to breathe for the next couple days... And if I have to get up in court again... Well, lets just say it won't be good.
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